Chapter 131: I accept
Weirdly, the day Lu Ti醤 Q� heard W醤g F-ng H� died she felt off that whole day. For some odd reason, she even went to pay her final respects even though they were strangers to each other.
Sadly that fact the Lu Ti醤Q� when to pay her final respects to W醤g F-ng H� had seemed more newsworthy then W醤g F-ng H�`s death. It had received more coverage in the news then W醤g F-ng H�`s death. It had saddened Lu Ti醤 Q� even more that W醤g F-ng H�`s death was on the front of newspapers in many different countries not because he died. But because Lu Ti醤 Q� went to pay her last respects to him.
W醤g F-ng H� had died in a car accident. He was speeding in a ridiculously expensive sports car. He had swerved to avoid hitting an old lady, lost control of his car, and slammed into a tree. It was reported he had three times the legal amount of alcohol in his system at the time of his death. He died on impact. He was driving so fast the impact of his car broken the tree. The tree he crashed into was a great big tree. It shouldn`t have broke.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g sat across from Liu Ti醤 Q�, waiting for her reaction. Liu Ti醤 Q� now knew who he was from his first life. However, never in a million years did he expect the reaction that Liu Ti醤 Q� had after finding out who he was.
Liu Ti醤 Q� looked at the young man that sat across from her. She really hoped that this life would treat him better. As she sat there thinking, it became very obvious to her that something went seriously wrong with Wang F鑞 Y襫g in his first life.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g was an extraordinarily brilliant and promising young man in his first life, but he deliberately and systematically destroyed it all. His second life was so bad that even now, he still hadn`t gotten over whatever he experienced in his second life. Liu Ti醤 Q� felt a deep sadness for Wang F鑞 Y襫g whelm up in her heart.
In a soft voice, Liu Ti醤 Q� asked, "Are you okay now? Are things better now?"
Although Wang F鑞 Y襫g easily controlled his expression outwardly, inwardly deep shock, and astonishment ripped through him. He expected ridicule, curiosity, questions, disdain, contempt, scorn, and even mockery or laughter. Never did he expect the deep concern he saw on Liu Ti醤 Q�`s face or heard in her voice. It moved his heart. For the first time in a very long time, his heart moved.
"I`m not okay, but I`m getting better." Wang F鑞 Y襫g decided to be truthful to this strange new friend that always did and said the unexpected.
"Then that is all that matters. Those times are of the past. Let`s let them remain in the past. I love your new family. They`re treating you well, right?" Liu Ti醤 Q� couldn`t help but feel a bit protective and try to find out if Wang F鑞 Y襫g was treated well at home.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g`s heart felt warm at the undisguised concern and protectiveness on Liu Ti醤 Q� face, "Yes, they treat me very well. The lives that I have lived have turned me into a twisted person. However, they love me and accept me as I am. Their love for me is not pretentious. Even my uncle, who is emperor, give me whatever I want and love me as I am." Wang F鑞 Y襫g reassured his young friend.
"Did you reincarnated into the body of Wang F鑞 Y襫g as well?" Liu Ti醤 Q� asked in curiosity.
"No, I was born as an infant to my mother of this life W� Gng Hu." Wang F鑞 Y襫g said.
"I reincarnated into this body a little over a month ago." Liu Ti醤 Q� shared with Wang F鑞 Y襫g.
"How did you die? If you don`t mind me asking." Wang F鑞 Y襫g asked.
"I don`t know when I woke up I was already in this body." With a slight hesitation, Liu Ti醤 Qu said, "There is also something else I wanted to tell you. I am really a female. However, I will be gender-bending as a man for a long while."
"I know," Wang F鑞 Y襫g answer with a faint smile.
"You know? You Knew?! How? When? What gave me away?" Liu Ti醤 Q� exclaimed in deep shock.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g faint smile turned into a tiny little smirk, "I lived a whole life as a womanizer, there was no way I could not have known."
"But...But when, when did you know for sure?" Liu Ti醤 Q� stuttered in shock.
"I suspected all along, I knew for sure as the way you look at me begin to change." Wang F鑞 Y襫g said with a warm look in his eyes.
"The ... the way I look at you? How.. how do I look at you?" Liu Ti醤 Q� didn`t know why she was getting nervous, but she was.
"You love me." Wang F鑞 Y襫g said in a soft firm voice as he stared at Liu Ti醤 Q� with gentle eyes.
Liu Ti醤 Q�`s heart skipped a beat. However, since Liu Ti醤 Q� had already accepted her feelings, she decided not to be ashamed of how she felt. She nodded in confirmation and said," I do, I do love you. I don`t know how and I don`t know why. But I love you."
"I accept," Wang F鑞 Y襫g said as a slow, beautiful smile bloomed on his face transforming his face and sending Liu Ti醤 Q�`s heart racing.
"I accept, however, I won`t be chasing you anytime soon. Although people that are thirteen years old get married in this era. Chasing a thirteen-year-old just don`t seem right to me." Wang F鑞 Y襫g said.
After several heartbeats, Wang F鑞 Y襫g quietly said, "Right now I am not in a good place. However, I think I will forever regret it if I let you go. I don`t know if what I feel for you right now could be called love. So, for now, let`s be friends and progress from there. Okay?" Wang F鑞 Y襫g proposed.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g never expected Liu Ti醤 Q� to look down at her chest and blurt out mournfully, "They won`t grow for a long time." Liu Ti醤 Q� looked as if she was about to cry.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g looked at the unpredictable Liu Ti醤 Q� and didn`t whether to laugh or cry. For a moment, he didn`t know what to say. Finally, he asked, "What do you mean?"
Liu Ti醤 Q� quickly explained the Black Blossoms Dual Potions, its functions and drawbacks, and how it would benefit her to use it.
"I already know that I am broken. I`m not ready, and neither are you. Don`t rush. Take your time. Do whatever it is you want to do. I have much healing to do, although now I am getting better. I am even able to touch you without wanting to kill you. You`re the first person I felt that way with, outside of my family. The first time when you touched me, and I almost killed you. It`s was more out of surprise and instinct than anything else. It was not because I felt the need to kill you." Wang F鑞 Y襫g confessed.Taken from Royal Road, this narrative should be reported if found on Amazon.
"It`s from your second life, right?" Liu Ti醤 Q� asked.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g silently nodded.
In a very soft, almost shy voice, Liu Ti醤 Q� asked, "Can...can I touch you?"
Wang F鑞 Y襫g silently lifted an arm that was resting in his lap under the table. He extended it across the table towards Liu Ti醤 Q�. Resting his arm on the table, Wang F鑞 Y襫g held out his hand to her.
Liu Ti醤 Q� heart was racing a mile a minute as she slowly slipped her hand into Wang F鑞 Y襫g`s hand. Wang F鑞 Y襫g gently gripped her hand, holding her hand in his. Liu Ti醤 Q� returned his grip. Their eyes met across the table, and for several heartbeats, they smiled at each other as they held hands.
With a soft smile on his face, Wang F鑞 Y襫g asked, "You said I reminded you of someone. Who do I remind you of?"
Looking at the gentle, beautiful smile on Wang F鑞 Y襫g`s face. Liu Ti醤 Q�`s fluttering heart felt like it was going to fly away. "The you now reminded me of one of my best friends." Liu Ti醤 Q� then began to tell Wang F鑞 Y襫g of her American friend Nickolas. She also told him of how Nickolas would react violently when people touched him without his permission.
"One time, I asked Nickolas`s wife how Nickolas became that way. His wife, Sarah, told me he wasn`t always that way. However, he was sent on a long mission in Iraq during the war, and when he came back, he was never the same." Liu Ti醤 Q� imparted to Wang F鑞 Y襫g.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g listen attentively as Liu Ti醤 Q� told him about her best friend.
"That`s when I knew that something terrible must have happened to him there. It took a while, but he slowly started to get better little by little. I had visited them a little before I reincarnated. I had to go to American for business. He greeted me at the airport with a hug. I felt so happy because I knew then that he was healing and getting better. I wonder how they are doing." Liu Ti醤 Q� sighed softly with a hint of sadness.
"How about J衝g Ji�? Who does he remind you of?" Wang F鑞 Y襫g asked. He had no one he missed in any of his lives. So it interested him to hear Liu Ti醤 Q� speak on people from her past life who she missed.
"Little Dumpling?" Liu Ti醤 Q� asked with a grin. "Little Dumpling reminds so much of my nephew Little Taro." Liu Ti醤 Q� began to tell Wang F鑞 Y襫g all about her adorable nephew. She laughed as she told him memorable, funny stories about her nephew.
"How old were you when you reincarnated?" Wang F鑞 Y襫g asked in curiosity.
"I was thirty-six years old," Liu Ti醤 Q� blushed slightly.
"You were absolutely beautiful. How is it you never married?" Wang F鑞 Y襫g wondered aloud.
"I only dated one man. I had a very horrible experience with love. It broke my heart so badly I decided to steer clear of all relationships and men. I decided never to get married. Any man that showed even the slightest interest in me, I either ran away or chased them away. My nephew was the child I never had. I was determined to never feel like that again." Liu Ti醤 Q� told Wang F鑞 Y襫g.
Liu Ti醤 Q� looked deep into Wang F鑞 Y襫g eyes and asked, "Please don`t hurt me? I didn`t have a choice but to love you. You just stole my heart. Later if you feel you can`t love me or don`t want to be with me, please let me know. Don`t hurt me, okay?"
Wang F鑞 Yong gently squeezed her hand, "That is something you never have to worry about. I promise I won`t hurt you." he promised.
"I felt what that feels like in my first life. I know what it feels like to have your heart shredded by someone you loved and trusted. I would never do that someone else. I promise I would never do that to you."
Wang F鑞 Yong then began to explain some of his past actions in his previous life, "In my first life I was not exactly a good example of a human being. Virtue? Morals? I threw everything away. However, every woman I had been with, I made sure to tell them commitment from me was not an option. All the women I had a relationship or a one night stand with. They all knew the score. Most of them were using me anyway, if not for money then for my family`s connections. I didn`t care. I was using them as well to satisfy my needs. However, if there is one thing I know for certain is that I fathered no children. The women that claimed I did were lying. In that life, when I was young, I had an extraordinary high fever that by right should have killed me. That fever rendered me sterile. I was unable to father children," Wang F鑞 Y襫g said with a sardonic look on his face.
That confirmed what Liu Ti醤 Q� suspected all along. Something went horribly wrong in Wang F鑞 Y襫g`s first life. However, she decided not to pick at his old wounds. If Wang F鑞 Y襫g wished to share anything, she would listen. However, she decided not to ask him any questions.
"Thank you. I promise to protect you, heart. I vow never to abuse your trust or hurt you." A sincere Liu Ti醤 Q� said.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g smiled and finally released Liu Ti醤 Q�`s hand to refreshen the tea in their cups.
"Did you inherit the memories of the original body owner?" Wang F鑞 Y襫g suddenly asked as he poured tea.
"I did," Liu Ti醤 Q� said. "However, they are not much help at all. My predecessor spent the majority of her life in confinement. There are major gaps in her knowledge and education. She was raised by an illiterate momo and didn`t even know how to read. She was scared to go out, so she obediently stayed confined in her courtyard. Her life was mostly spent gardening and sneaking around the Lu compound dressed as a maid." Liu Ti醤 Q� decided not to share the fact that her predecessor died only after being reincarnated to the age of thirteen. She felt it would probably bring more harm than good. Plus, the fate of the Tolling Land changed. Many things would now be different. So, for now, she decided to keep that information to herself.
Slyly changing the subject, Liu Ti醤 Q� said, "Hey! You never did tell me how you figured out I was not from this era?"
"Although I suspected, I didn`t know for sure until you answered me when I spoke to you in English." Wang F鑞 Y襫g said with a faint smirk on his face.
"You cheat!" Liu Ti醤 Q� pointed at him and accused him. By now, Liu Ti醤 Q� and Wang F鑞 Y襫g had already grown very comfortable with each other. Liu Ti醤 Q� unconsciously began treating Wang F鑞 Y襫g as she would a close friend from the 21st century and Wang F鑞 Y襫g allowed it with a small smile on his face.
"Let me tell you why I suspected you. Number one is, there is this knowing and understanding in your eyes and a certain indescribable aura about you that just don`t belong on a thirteen-year-old child.
Liu Ti醤 Q� sulkily said with a pout as she crossed her arms across her chest and puffed out her cheeks, "That is not telling me anything.
"Number two is you just don`t act like people of this era." Liu Ti醤 Q� gave Wang F鑞 Y襫g a baleful look but said nothing, so he continued.
"Number three is Lao Tzu," Wang F鑞 Y襫g informed Liu Ti醤 Q�. He was referring to the words of wisdom he overheard her telling Little Dumpling.
"Okay, I will own that one. What else?" Liu Ti醤 Q� asked.
"The Horse Stance. That is a Kung fu form, isn`t it?" Wang F鑞 Y襫g asked.
"The horse stance it is practiced in most Asian martial arts." Liu Ti醤 Q� refuted with a frown.
"Here, the martial arts practiced is different. The martial arts are predominately more of a variation of the ancient Korean Gwonbeo and ancient Japanese Kenjutsu with thousands of different variations and technics thrown in. There are also many hidden forms of martial arts, especially in the martial world. I`ve spent my life on the battlefield and amongst warriors, never had I seen any forms or stance of kungfu. The moment I saw the horse stance, my suspicions only deepened." Wang F鑞 Y襫g informed her.
"I will definitely be practicing Qi Gong, Shaolin Kung fu, and many other martial arts disciplines that I picked up in my previous life. That means I will have to be more sneaky." Liu Ti醤 Q� said with a contemplating look on her face.
Liu Ti醤 Q� and Wang F鑞 Y襫g talked past dawn all the way until the sun came up. It`s been so long since Wang F鑞 Y襫g felt comfortable with anyone to speak more than a couple of words. He really enjoyed talking with Liu Ti醤 Q�.
Liu Ti醤 Q� wanted time to stop so she could continue enjoying Wang F鑞 Y襫g company. She didn`t want him to go back to the cold face, expressionless unapproachable young man. She loved his smiles, those faint smirks, and the many expression he allowed her to see on his face. Those were the best gifts he could have given her.
All through the early hours of the morning, her heart pounded, raced, skip beats, and froze. It sped up, and it slowed down, and she enjoyed every moment of it. They talked about anything and everything. The past, the present, the future. It was only when the sun came up did they reluctantly part ways.
Wang F鑞 Y襫g had to hurry home. The Lord, Lady, and Heir of Wang Royal Manor had to enter the Imperial Palace.