>> It wasn`t that simple.

　　The moment I realized the unrequited love I have suddenly ended; that the time the person who I cherished was taken by someone who will make her happier than me.

　　If only I was born a man, I will not hold back to tell her how I truly feel. That guy can give something I can never provide. And choosing the one she falls in love with isn`t my bounds to step on.

　　I`m fully aware, that my feelings as a person who wants someone as her to stay by my side as a lover won`t reciprocate.

　　"Jessie... hello!"

　　A snap sound of finger suddenly dragged me back to the reality. Looking at the surroundings, crowds gathered in group, and the tranquility of the place succumbs over.

　　That then I realized that this is the library inside the university. Scattering around are the papers needed to analyze in the upcoming lecture later.

　　"Huh...?" my eyes meet someone. It`s the person I knew. She has a short, bob-cut style hair and pair of eyeglasses.

　　"You`re spacing too much; what`s the matter?" this person, tagging me along is my classmate named Kristine. We`ve been known each other since I attend University.

　　Like me, she`s on the sophomore year of college, attending same course as me.

　　"No, nothing." I tepidly answered and look back at the papers. It`s been a week since I learned that my childhood friend got a lover. And from that I`ve felt anguish over.If you spot this narrative on Amazon, know that it has been stolen. Report the violation.

　　"It seems that something or someone`s bothering you. Who or what that might be, huh...?"

　　"No, it`s nothing. Let`s just focus on our upcoming lecture later."

　　"Come on, you can tell something about me. I do feel that there`s something bothering you."

　　I look at Kristine as she smiles at me. I felt like she`s mocking me right now.

　　"I don`t feel like telling it. Besides, you can`t do anything bout it at all. It would be better if—"

　　"About your love life, huh...?" she chided before I proceed.

　　I got astounded after as she hits me through that word. What, how did she know that...?

　　"What...?"

　　"What do you mean what...? I am observing your facial expression. It all says to you, duh?"

　　She grunted at me like it all matters. "So, who was it...?" Kristine hits the bull`s eye. Damn, how should I make excuse for that? She hasn`t found that I`m not like the other usual girls she known.

　　I`m afraid that she might turn off and go away from me.

　　"Why do you care...?" I mumbled exasperatedly.

　　"Oh, come on, you`re in your prime now. It`s good to have a boyfriend at your age, you know...?"

　　Her eyes glimmer as those words flows out of her lips. Kristine is somewhat a hopeless romantic person. Though, she hasn`t been in love with someone, she`s always bragging about not getting a boyfriend since birth.

　　And I always listen to that complaint. But it`s not that bothers me a lot, though.

　　"What `cha think, go with me in a meet up? There are some boys coming over. Let`s have fun."

　　As she said it, I looked at her in a wistful way.

　　"What...? I`ll go with you to meet some guys I didn`t know at all? What the heck? What am I supposed to do?"

　　"Well, meet and greet. As simple as that, and that maybe you find someone. There`s no harm with that."

　　With a wide grin, Kristine glares at me. "This might be the good time for you to find the good person you want to be with."

　　"I think this isn`t a good idea at all. I mean, I`ll gonna meet strange people... who knows what their motive is?"

　　"I know those guys particularly; they don`t mean harm to anyone. Besides, it`s all good for you to take a break from time to time."

　　She`s thinking about me too much. Too much that I don`t even know how to refuse over that matter.

　　"Okay, but for this once only."

　　"Yes! Just for this once. Thanks, Jessie!"

　　Kristine giggled as she confirmed my consent. I smile wryly at her, dragging on situation might cheer me up. I know that she`s doing this for my sake and I`m glad about it.

　　"The event will be this weekend. Don`t make necessary plans, okay?"

　　"Got it; let`s finish this and go to the next class. Time`s almost up."

　　We both proceed in taking notes and do some paper reports while thinking about what will going to happen on the weekend.

　　This happens so sudden, and I do want to know if any person would be there to cheer me up.

　　"Dating a guy, huh...?"

　　Mumbling softly, I contemplate to that idea. Might be, it will help me change for the better. Though, it won`t be clear enough how would I go far to deceive myself for being not good enough for a man.